Okay my loyal Rabbiteers, feed me back on this one. At what point do you just say fuck it? I have been racking my brain trying to figure out something to do for a friend of mine for Valentine's Day... My problem is not what to do (though I have not yet figured that out yet, either) but really more of a 'why bother' type issue. Most times when I try to do something for this person, I get little to nothing from them, or a snide remark. So, well... Do I even make the effort or is it just a 'why bother'? I am one of those that squees with unadulterated joy at something as simple as a box of crayons. Woo hoo!!! Now, mind you, I do not expect that, in the least, but a dick's drip of graciousness might not be that bad.
It just makes me not want to even try. I do what I can - usually in trade with others for graphics or hair-dids or the like because I haven't a real income and am more broke than an unfunny joke. So I am limited and what little I usually CAN do takes some effort and finagling. The last thing I managed (to do) was met with "well that's great but it doesn't pay the rent." Well, fuck you too then. Give it back then. I really don't know what to do. A part of me wants to do something - but then a part of me doesn't want to get my feelings hurt again. Even knowing what to expect and steeling myself for it, I still get my feelings hurt. It's just how I am. I expect everyone else to be like me knowing full well 99% of them are unmitigated pus oozing asshole monkeys.
So, my conundrum is - do I even try? Or do I just let them sit there sad and ignored because you know aint no one else is going to do any damned thing for them either for the holiday? Maybe I should just do something for myself instead... No hurt feelings there...
What would you do? What should I do? Ugh. I really hate people sometimes. So ugly.
